Octuplet mother Nadya Suleman made a frantic, emotional call to 911 last year, when she thought she'd lost one of her children.
Police on Wednesday released a recording of the call from Oct. 27, in which Suleman is wild with fear and repeatedly tells the operator she's going to kill herself.
The operator, hearing children in the background, chides Suleman, telling her to keep herself under control for the children's sake.
Suleman said she hadn't seen her 5-year-old son, Joshua Jacob, for an hour and she feared the boy had been kidnapped.
She repeatedly asks the operator, "Where's my son?" before being able to provide an address or information.
Suleman gave birth to octuplets Jan. 26, and also has six other children, ages 2 to 7.
And if audio isn't enough for you, perhaps you'd prefer Suleman's videotape.